A little overwhelmed

My positive thinking is running low already. I went to the Drs. with high hopes of them seeing lots of follicles. My first ultrasound found two on each side. This second found there were none on the right side and a few on the left. I was hoping for lots on each side. So in light of that, they increased my one medication from 200 to 275 in hopes that the little ones of the left side will start to grow. In addition, we had to order more medication due to the increase, which cost of another $500. Whew...

I called and spoke with my IVF lady and although she said this isn't common, it's not uncommon either. It didn't make me feel any better. The most painful part of the whole process is paying for it. This is the biggest gamble we could ever take. Ultimately, what we would like to have happen is that they retrieve at least 12 to 20 eggs, and there are several good ones to freeze. We can accept the fact that it might not work the first time, but if we have anything to freeze, we could do a semi-natural cycle with a frozen embie at a fourth of the cost.

And despite all the fun with IVF, we have been fostering a pound puppy until we can find her a good home. We had a few different people who were interested, but after having a police friend do background checks, we found some of the info was false. We were almost at the point where we planned on keeping her, but we knew this upcoming IVF surgery was going to restrict me from being able to move around and she was an added responsibility. To make matters worse, this morning, one of our dogs started wheezing. Apparently, our foster dog had contracted kennel cough and although she had not been around either of our dogs, it was passed along. We are desperately trying to find her a home, and fast!

My next appointment is Thursday and since yesterday, I've had my fingers, toes, and eyelashes crossed. I'm praying that we get better news and I can start thinking positive again. I'm looking into massage for the next few days to help keep me focused and grounded. Until then, extra yoga!