A memory keeps making its way back into my mind from several years ago. When we first got engaged we thought we had it all figured out. The world was in our hands. We were young...19...and madly in love, with wedding plans well underway. I can remember we were driving down the road when we saw the new Lincoln LS pass us. We both decided as soon as we graduated from college we would buy one. I told Kyle I wasn't sold on the design of the back light. He assured me when he bought ours he would have them change that. Ha!Years later I think back to how innocent we were in thinking things would happen as we chose. We knew we wanted to marry young and start a family within our first year of marriage. We decided 4 children before we were 30 was perfect. We would live in a perfect home with a custom designed LS and be the perfect family. Then that happily ever after came to a screeching halt.
As life continues on and we try with desperation to find the light at the end of the tunnel and that happily ever after, I look around and wonder where we went wrong. After nearly 5½ years of searching high and low I've come to this conclusion: we didn't do anything wrong! Our future was carved out in this way because we can handle it. Our journey has proven to shake the foundation we stand on, but we always hold on to one another and press forward. Some days it makes it difficult to smile, but at the end of the day our love hasn't wavered, it's only grown. It doesn't always feel like that, but I'm reminded of where we started and where we've come and it's simply amazing.
We may not have ended up with that custom Lincoln, but we've etched out a pretty fantastic existence thus far. Our happily ever after is in the making and it's going to be an incredible story one day.
