Confused...

Here we are only a few days away from finding out if the IVF worked, but the more time goes by, the less hope I have. A few people who know we did the IVF have been calling and asking if I've had morning sickness or if I've had any other symptoms. That's not making me feel any better. I feel nothing and after everyone asking if I feel this or that, I guess I should feel something by now.

I'm trying to stay neutral. I don't want to think it has happened only to be crushed if it doesn't work. Yet, I don't want to think all hopes lost. This 2 week wait has been the worst since we started IUIs last February. There is so much more invested in an IVF cycle...emotionally, physically, and financially. If we didn't have to pay out of pocket maybe it wouldn't be such a scary process knowing we could do it again and again with little cost involved. I'm not sure we can shell out another 15 grand for a shot in the dark. It's frustrating! I need the next few days to fly by so we can find out one way or another. The blood test will actually be on our 4½ year "anniversary." What a wonderful gift that would be...

Crossing our fingers...