Life Goes On

I've officially finished my first month of teaching. And we are having our first weekend away for the first time in quite a while. We are in Kyle's childhood stomping grounds for a wedding. It was an unusually long trip which ended up taking 8 hours with 2 quick stops. Thank goodness our hotel is super nice and the bed felt pretty much like home. It will be a busy day full of seeing old friends, a tour of his hometown, and of course as much shopping as the car can hold.

The past month has been full of new decisions and changes. It seems like life is moving on with and without us. Now that I'm working, life is moving in the right direction with more options for our future, but there's still a part of us that's having trouble keeping up. Our hearts are still aching to be parents.

Maybe more than ever before.

As we watch so many around us welcoming little ones to their families, announcing pregnancies, and posting pictures of every moment of their child's life, we are reminded of how much we are missing out on. I still wish I could experience pregnancy. I don't know if I'll ever feel differently. I would give up everything and more to have that chance.

We were discussing it the other day and realized we are in such a small majority of the population it's no wonder no one understands and doesn't seem to care. It's not something that's well understood because so few people have experienced it. And I suppose the same goes for us. We don't understand what it's like to be on the other side. We're in a secret society that very few understand and no one wants to join.

But life goes on and everyday brings new things. And our future truly does have so much in store for us. We'll get there...one day at a time.