We celebrated our 6th anniversary on the gorgeous campus of Virginia Tech, where we met and fell in love. While on campus, we reminisced about our somewhat unconventional relationship, our amazing wedding, the past 6 years, and the future; where we wanted to be and how we would get there.
And then I asked Kyle something that had been on my mind for a while.
Should we try again?
I offered the idea of attempting another IUI. Maybe several. The least invasive and stressful of all the infertility procedures. Or we could kick it up a notch and combine the IUI with injectibles...aka...Follistim & Lupron...aka...the same drugs I had for the IVF. Technically we hadn't tried the two things at the same time, or at least not in combination. We left the discussion open, without making any final decisions.
Fast forward a week. At dinner tonight, we returned to the discussion. Was another IVF out of the question? Do I really want to return to that chapter in our life? Half of me is willing and desires another try. The other half, cringes at the thought. And maybe ironically, I want that side to prevail. The simple thought and discussion exhausts me, but there's still a place in my heart that's tugging at my head & ovaries simultaneously. Ask me on another day and I might feel differently.
Or maybe reading this: http://theinfertilitytherapist.blogspot.com/2010/10/end-of-line-decision-to-end-infertility.html
put a lot into perspective. A lot...
And Monday brings another year of my life. I'm not sure how I feel about that either. Just one year closer to 30 and shopping in the Alfred Dunner section. I did find a semi-fountain of youth, since it was overlooked on the school calendar. I guess I can stay 28 for another year. Unfortunately, I'll be celebrating alone since all of my family & better half will be out of town. Just me and my 4 legged babies.
Looking forward to 6 more years of loving my husband while staying effortlessly young...
