A Year Later

Hard to believe a year ago we were starting the IVF process. Another year has passed which makes our grand total 5 years of trying. It's depressing to think about, but I can't let it get me down. It's definitely a good thing we waited to try the IUI again. I ovulated in the middle of a snow storm. Sounds funny, but this area hasn't seen snow like that in over 10 years. Since we live in another state from the infertility doctor, it would have been crazy trying to make it all work for the IUI. The undue stress wouldn't have been in our favor either.

I started taking my BBT again to get an idea of what my next cycle will be like. My only concern is the Day 16 ovulation. FertilityFriend differed on it being Day 15 or 16, before it changed it to Day 16. But that's better than ovulating on Day 18 or 19 like in the past.I've recently had this very intense urge to try again. After the failed FET in August, I was trying to get myself back to being happy and normal feeling again; I wasn't in the right state of mind to try again. I guess for awhile I had just given up and tried to accept the idea of not being pregnant. But the last few weeks have been completely different and I'm incredibly anxious to try again. It hit me the other day that time is running out for me to get pregnant. My heart condition limits me and odds are not in my favor if I get pregnant past 30 because of that. This might add to my feelings of "urgency" but I think it's more the desire to be a mom and the time that's passed since the last try that relit the fire again. It would be a dream to have a baby before the end of the year, but the bitter reality pill has nasty side effects of killing dreams. We shall see...

7 more days till our battle begins again!