I've been trying to take the approach my psychiatrist told me to do. To accept that I might not have children and move on with my life. I'd like to think the past few months have been just that, but he said it wasn't since I was still upset about not being able to have children and counting the days till the next try. He agreed with my OBGYN by saying that we could still continue to try, since it doesn't hurt anything, but I need to not dwell on it or think about it. I don't completely agree with him since I can't forget about it when we do try the IUI nor will I ever be totally happy until I'm a mom. But what if I'm never a mom?! My life will always be incomplete. I see what he's trying to say, it's just going to take me a while to get there.
In the meantime, we're getting ready for Christmas and have a few presents left to find. Thanksgiving was a success and everyone loved the food. I had no idea I could cook that much food that well and for that many people! It's kind of sad to think that these will be our last holidays in this home. We always thought this would be the house we brought our first baby home to. Sadly, it won't be. We desperately hope the next home will be where we raise our children. Otherwise, we'll just keep adopting animals!
Looking forward to what's to come...
blurry but us enjoying the Hokie game!
