decisions decisions

I've been pretty busy lately and it's been nice. Really nice. But now that the school year is coming to an end, my busy will be significantly less. So we've decided to start the adoption process sooner than later. I need to call and get the home study process underway. Since we've already decided on the lawyer, we've got that part figured out.

Our dilemma now is deciding in what order to do things. Once school is out I'll only have summer tutoring to contend with. We can't decide whether to do the final transfer now while we start the adoption process or wait. But as I'm sitting here writing this I keep thinking why wait to do the transfer. I guess I'm avoiding the transfer due to all the crazy emotions that come along with it. Kyle told me the decision is mine since it's my body that has to be invaded one last time.

The benefit to doing the transfer soon is getting the patches-wearing part done before bikini season officially arrives and not having to pay storage fees for the embryos any longer. The cons is throwing 4 grand away, taking all the hormones & medications, getting excited & hopeful only to have our dreams crushed and going through the pain of failure again.

Hoping "we'll" come to a final decision by next week.